“The natural [wo]man is an enemy…”
(Mosiah 3:19 in the Book of Mormon)
Toughest critic, newfound cynic, cross examine everything
Radar for threats, emotional debts, I trust only reluctantly
Riches on my mind, not quite as kind, eyeing the world ambitiously
Only a shell of my former self, where is that girl I used to be?
How can I retain my purity after tasting the fruit of iniquity?
Can I regain my innocence in the face of spiritual dissonance?
Struggle between who I am naturally
And the person that I need to be
Caught up in ideal identities
(My best friend and my enemy)
No easy victory in this internal war
I’ve lasted this long; I’ll keep fighting some more
“Got no choice but to fight, so fight on.”
Nothing is as satisfying as making significant and (near) tangible progress on a goal that you dream of reaching.
“Joy comes from starting and fashioning a job that is the workmanship of [your] own hands”
-L. Tom Perry (Member of the LDS Quorum of the 12)
When have YOU made progress?
I wanna get off and go home again…
I think it’s high time for a little controversy, don’t you? 🙂
Those who are part of the Mormon “Ordain Women” movement make no secret that they will again demonstrate at the Priesthood session of General Conference taking place in 2 days time. Some are even more bolstered now than before (namely author Joanna Brooks), as they seem to take the letter from the PR department as some sort of a challenge.
Here’s where I am confused: Why would anyone put themselves through that….again? I understand that being denied permission to attend in October was quite emotionally taxing for those involved. So why would you want to do that to yourself one more time? Never mind that you are now deliberately defying the Church’s request; it just seems unfathomable to try again when you are destined to, well, fail in your endeavor. Before, you thought you had a chance. Now, you don’t have one at all.
I’m not trying to be unkind. I’m not even necessarily trying to discourage you. But why? Why are you going to torture yourself again? It seems to me to be emotionally masochistic. I know that you believe you have a greater cause, but at what cost (when it’s already guaranteed that you will not meet your goal) ?
Who finds a way to fit John Mayer into EVERYTHING?
Ordain Women, why are you doing this????
Anger! he smiles tow’ring
shiny metallic purple armour…
“He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he that ruleth his spirit [is better] than he that taketh a city.”
What’s the advantage
in learning to manage?
DON’T look back in anger.
“Anger is “a sin of thought” which, if not controlled,
may be the forerunner of vicious and violent acts.”
Anger should not be fully expressed
Nor should it be fully repressed.
When dealing with this sin of thought,
Just try to do your very best!
Before he was famous, John Mayer expressed that he was his own biggest advocate. This maxim has served him extremely well and has led him to his magnificent career; as it pushed him to work tirelessly to polish his skills and achieve musical excellence, stand up for himself when others might have disagreed/disapproved, and fight for what he wanted, artistically and otherwise. Inspired by John (as I usually am), I have adopted this philosophy for my own life and likewise declare that I am my own biggest advocate.
Are YOU your own biggest advocate?
If not, how can you be?
but it’s also quite exhausting!
So I am just looooving this chance that I have to write. To express myself and to say things that are valuable and can speak to others. It’s a gift to have the means, the skills, and the freedom to create as I do. Often times during the day I am inspired and think of things to write about! I have to keep it tucked in my mind (or in my notebook) til I can finally get to it. And I do get to it 🙂 So yes, I love the opportunity to write.
But it takes its toll, too! Inspiration is often inconvenient. Like often the best ideas come at really inopportune times (like in the middle of the night). It’s something many artists deal with. John Mayer, Natasha Bedingfield, and Taylor Swift to drop some big names. And it takes energy. Mental, emotional, physical energy. Don’t get me wrong, I ain’t complaining! Not in the least. Just expressing that truly committing oneself to one’s chosen art form can be pretty tiring.
Writing’s sweet as frosting,
but it’s also quite exhausting!
let me be!
I “studied” this book in a British Lit class at BYU
Embarrassed to admit that I didn’t read it a whole bunch (Sparknotes 😦 )
Friends, we truly are living in hard times. Perilous, even. And there is no single answer to solve our personal/ individual troubles, let alone our world’s problems. But may I suggest just a few:
1) Be kind to other people
2) Do your best to get your finances in order and be a wise steward over your things.
3) Sacrifice what you need to to obey the laws of God even more exactly
5) Reach out to others
6) Have hope
7) Keep reading my blog
Hope you can find some happiness, despite these: