Human/ Mormon/ Woman: KATHERINE

You gave me wings
The future me
Would need to get away

I like the sound of silence
An unresponsive client
I truly do not not mind, but still check
In from time to time

I wish I had the heart
I want to have the time
To see to every part
Of all that’s on my mind

Business is booming
Deadlines are looming
The thrill of the sale
The fear I could fail

“Be as candid about your questions as you need to be;
life is full of them on one subject or another.”
-Jeffrey R. Holland
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Just admit the dissonance 
Between the truth and narrative 
It’s hardly ever comfortable 
But say it, and it’s tolerable 
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Some things cannot be reconciled
At least not by the earthly mind 
The answers don’t come easily
There’s still a chance to find some peace 
…
All the ways your heart’s involved 
All the puzzles you can’t solve 
Save questions for another day 
The soul can simply need a break 
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A worldview that’s been challenged 
A hope that lies in balance 
A crisis of the faith that you
Can’t explain away 
…
Truth somehow will still endure
Even when you’re just not sure 
Hold fast and stand your ground of the 
Truth that you once found 
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Not saying do not question
Or close your eyes to reason
No perfect, tight solution (imperfect)
Peace amidst confusion

I struggle in the small things
They seem so hard for me
All the things that seem to come to
Others naturally

I’m challenged by the mundane
There’s fear, anxiety
The smallest undertaking seems a
Monumental feat

I’m overwhelmed by details
It all just gets to me
Like raising kids and just keeping
My stupid kitchen clean
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I struggle in the small things
There’s not much more to say
Best I can do is keep on truckin’
Going day by day