I’m at a place in my life where I have hope and energy and faith. I really am. But I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I’m still disappointed and confused about some things. Why haven’t certain opportunities worked out for me yet? Things that have happened for a lot of my friends and family. And don’t give me any of the crap about not comparing ourselves. To avoid that completely is near impossible.
I’m a smart girl. I’m a good girl. I work hard. I have a lot going for me. But still there are a lot of things lacking. And I’m not really talking about marriage here (although truthfully, that is a part of it). I’m talking about career and milestones and other things I want.
I believe they’re coming. I really do. And I’ve made so many great strides. Like, I’m finally starting to get my body back. I ran my first 5K in a while yesterday, and I secured my lovely apartment in Salt Lake. Still, I’m hungry for more things that simply aren’t here yet. I just gotta keep pushing forward, and I will. I’m happy, but I’m far from satisfied.
Sometimes the greater plan
is kinda hard to understand…